As Christians we all drive on the highway to heaven. Our Lord God intended for all mankind to go to heaven, but sin entered the world and man chose to drive the other way. You and I both have driven on what we both thought was the highway to heaven. As we are driving down this long road of life, we see a hitchhiker. He has long hair, a beard, his clothes look dirty and worn-out and you look closer, you think this man must be carrying the sins of the world on his shoulders. So, without a second thought you drive by him saying I have no need for this person. As you drive down the road of life you see another hitchhiker. You see this person and you think to yourself, hmmm I like this guy, He has everything in life I want. I think I’ll give him a ride. Now your life takes a turn for the worse. What you thought was going to bring you joy and happiness, now brings you unbearable problems, sickness, disease, lust, and hate.

Now you are on the highway to Hell. There is no stop signs, or speed limits, just one long dark road leading you to a dead end of life. As you are desperately trying to think to yourself how can I get off this road, life is getting harder to deal with, people have turned on me, I have no one to love me, I am losing control of my own life what can I do? I want to die and get it over with. As that wasn’t enough to deal with, you see the end of the highway to Hell. You see darkness. You hear cries of anguish, you feel pain and torment and you smell death in the air. The gates of Hell are opening wide, ready to take you in and keep you forever and ever. Right before you enter you look and you see that same hitchhiker you saw a long time ago. (You know the one with long hair and worn-out clothes.) With both of his arms open wide looking at you and calling your name. You look in his eyes and you can see hope, forgiveness, eternal life, and love. So you pull over and you let Him into your life. Now you are on the highway to heaven were the roads are paved with gold.

 

 
It's been 9 months since I last stepped down from leadership and left the CG. And nobody has been updating this blog.. So I think I ought to do something about it.

I just want to let you know that you guys are the most wonderful group of people that I've ever known. Always so supportive and loving towards me. I left with much sorrow and burdens. Though I was disheartened by the many who left, I was encouraged by those who stayed and kept on walking this walk of faith.

For a few months, I kept blaming myself for stepping down and causing the souls to leave the kingdom of God. Although I know perfectly that those who are not grounded will leave eventually. I felt that these people loved me more than they loved God and it was my fault that I did not get them to love God more. Anyway, I'm past that stage of self condemnation. I know that I'm just an imperfect person doing what God has called me to do back then. I'm imperfect as it is and I should move on to do other things that He has called me to do rather than to keep blaming myself and couldn't move on in life.

I do miss the times that we shared as a family, the times that we hugged each other every time we meet or leave, the times of joy and sadness, etc.. They will always be beautiful memories in my heart. Memories that will never be washed away. I believe friendship goes beyond the label W220. Many of us are still keeping in touch despite not being in the same CG. Though the times that we meet may have decreased, I believe our heart for one another still holds.. We will never be in the same CG forever because we'll grow and go through different seasons in our lives.

With that, I have a few questions to ask:

1. Is the state of your heart the same as the state of this blog? Have you stopped in 2007 and not moved on to 2008?

2. Have you been hanging on too much till you've not moved on?? (got this phrase from Val's blog and I think it makes a whole lot of sense)

3. Has the beautiful memories in W220 become a boundary in your life that you can't climb over it and create other beautiful memories with other groups of people?

These are some thoughts after reading some blogs. And I wonder how many will get to read this entry. But I wish to say that I love all of you and I wish for the best of all of you.. to move on and be the best that you can be in every place that God has put you in, because YOU are a Child of God. I believe in YOU, always!

P/S: Love is what we bring into the place that we are in. WE create a loving environment.

 
Often we want the best for ourselves,
The best team of people to give us the best knowledge
But to you know if not of the trial of these people & hardships which they gone through
How will we be able to learn from them now

When we walk out and view the world,we can see the beautiful of life
When we are hungry ,we can eat
Our parents and friends are still alive
When we are happy,we can shout
When we are sad,we can cry
Why those around us are so precious and nice
And we take them for granted
If we have eyes,we still can see
If we have ears,we still can hear
If we have legs,we still can walk
Even when we are sick,but still we survive
No matter how hard it can be,as long as we are alive,be grateful
When we are healthy,we can choose the type of drinks we want
Often some of you may not like to drink plain water
But do you know if you are seriously sick,you will even have difficulty drinking
and will need to absorb bits by bits on the mouth
On normal case,we want sunshine
But at times,we will feel that the light is just too glaring for us

You may have hate a person for the serious wrong he/she has done
And will not forgive him/her
But do you know at times of emergency, if he/she is so willingly to come forward to save you,to protect you from danger
At that moment,will your heart drops and tears flow down?

Let the love moves once again

Are you a life fighter or one who gives up easily?

 
年輕人喜歡上了在便利商店打工的女孩，

他每天都會到女孩工作的店裏買一包香煙，

漸漸的兩人開始互相熟悉。

但女孩工作感到無聊乏味的時候，或者是心情不好的時候，

年輕人就會出現，

他會陪女孩說説話，或是逗逗她開心。

女孩也知道年輕人好像喜歡上自己了，可是自己已經有很要好的男朋友了，

面對年輕人的如此關懷，自己也不知道如何婉拒他。

有一天商店外頭運來了一台娃娃機，女孩很喜歡裏面的娃娃，

年輕人知道了以後，就去夾了一只娃娃送給女孩，

當天他終于向他表白，希望女孩能接受他，

不知如何是好的女孩，只能殘忍的告訴年輕人，他和她是不可能的，

因爲她已經有心愛的男朋友了，

年輕人聼了之後默默的點點頭，

只是自己對女孩的喜歡已經超出自己所預期的，

他不死心的問女孩，自己真的沒有機會了嗎？

善良的女孩不忍心看到原本開朗風趣的年輕人變得如此消沉寡默，

於是她手指着娃娃機裏面的絨毛娃娃說，

除非你夾滿100個娃娃，而且一天只能夾一個。

原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情，

她心想，一天夾一個娃娃，最快也要三個多月之後才有100個，

而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧！

這三個月的時間，她會盡量與男孩保持距離，

她決心讓兩人恢復到店員與顧客的關係。

年輕人還是每天到商店來，可是女孩開始變得冷淡，

他總是試着聊一些女孩有興趣的話題，不過女孩依然愛理不理。

因爲她知道唯有這樣做，才不會讓年輕人越陷越深，

年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意，

於是他每天夾娃娃，有時運氣好加一兩次就中了，

有時運氣差，零用錢花光了也夾不到，只好跟朋友借錢繼續夾，

一直到夾中爲止。

無論花多少錢花多少時間，他每天一定會夾一個娃娃，

只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅，

因爲他知道女孩有意要避開他，

爲了怕影響到女孩的情緒，他只能在櫥窗外微笑的對女孩點點頭。

好幾次，看到年輕人因爲夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子，

女孩都想要沖出去對他說，

我是騙你的，你不要再夾了，就算你真的夾到100個娃娃，我跟你也是不可能的！

但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子，女孩就於心不忍，

她只能不斷猶豫。

就這樣1天，2天，3天。。。。年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的增加，

而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果，則是讓自己在工作的時候更顯孤單。

不知道是哪一天，女孩子因爲在外地工作的男朋友無法囘來陪她過18嵗的生日，

與男友吵了一架，

而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便利商店，

不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裏，

他對女孩說，

可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去，

可是因爲和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩，很生氣的當場拒絕了他，

就這樣，年輕人走到娃娃機旁，默默的夾了一個娃娃回去，

在年輕人離開的時候，他對櫥窗裏的女孩看了一眼。

隔天以後，年輕人再也沒有來夾娃娃了，

剛開始女孩雖然覺得奇怪，但是仍然慶幸自己終于放下了心中的大石塊，

可是漸漸的，她突然覺得不習慣，

因爲那個每天都會爲了她來夾娃娃的熟悉蹤影，

好像空氣一樣就消失不見了，

這是女孩才發現到，

原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負擔，

只是一切都。。。。。

女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裏陪她聊天的點點滴滴，

哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃，

似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感，

所以女孩每天上班時，總是不斷的擡頭張望，

那個熟悉的身影來了嗎？

可惜的是，年輕人始終沒出現，只剩下那台沒人使用的娃娃機。

有一天，女孩下班后，在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人一起來的朋友，

她焦急地問他年輕人的下落，可是年輕人的朋友則是一臉黯然，

他帶女孩來到年輕人的傢，

但他開啓年輕人的房門的門時，映入女孩眼簾的是一群娃娃機裏面的絨毛娃娃，

以及躺在床上動也不動的年輕人。

原來年輕人的脊椎有病，必須要開刀才能保住性命，

可是開刀有一半的幾率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓，

年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上，也就是女孩和男朋友吵架的那一天，

希望女孩給她機會夾兩個娃娃，因爲他已經累積有98個了，

然而卻遭到女孩的囘拒，

隔天之後，年輕人手術不幸失敗變成植物人，

年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩，那是年輕人在手術之前寫好的：

其實我早就知道，就算夾到了100個娃娃，

妳也不可能會喜歡我，

我之所以這麽做，並不是故意要造成你的困擾，

而是希望在我有限的時間裏，

證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人，這樣就足夠了，

如果你看到了這封信，

那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了，

對不起，

或許我的努力還不夠吧，

沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送換。。。

女孩看着床邊的99個絨毛娃娃，那是99顆無法承受的真心，

眼眶裏的淚水早已決提而出。。

隔天女孩來到年輕人的家裏，

她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中，

這時已變成植物人的他，

眼睛留下了淚水。。。

 

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昨日我的心很乱，很不安
一整天就快要结束了
为何她们还没告诉我要哪首歌呢
可能不需要您 吧
别人都不急，您又何必关心呢
好吧就压抑自己别问了
可是因为我在意，所以我还是小提了：“明日不用唱 了吗？”
说了就算了，为何又小气
结果让双方进入安静
人真的再一次让我失望了
我好气好气她
我决心退出MOBLOG，后DELETE AS CONTRIBUTOR
我拿掉在FRIENDSTER的照片
问人如何叉掉她的联系
连MSN 也拿掉了
我不去理了
让我早日再投入工作的怀抱吧


我为何那样生气呢？
如果我与一人没感情，我就不会有感觉了
更不会在意所得或做的东西
往往一个巴掌拍不响的
那需要互动的

我不想活在过往
但那段日子是就好的
虽艰难，我们一起走过
如今慧文和佳慧，你们都不在这了

有时跟A 君 和 B 小姐说话
不是没答，就是转移到别的东西去
这样下去，我还敢分享吗？

或许一个人会更精彩。。。
我行我素
不在为别人而难过
影响心情

波浪高高低低
飘浮不定